Friday, 24 June 2016

Current mood: a glittery, soft, pink mess

My current mood is the desire to be 7 again and playing fairies (I was more the vampire type growing up, totally missed the princess stage). In lieu of this, I am sat in my room beneath a plethora of my little pony posters, chain-smoking cigarettes in full fairy glitter makeup.

Unfortunately time travel has not yet been made possible; a small collection of nostalgic kawaii glitter things I've found, however, means that even if I can't go back in time to be a kiddy fairy, at least I can dress like one. Pastel ombrés are my adult alternative to disney princess dresses, and the Olympia Le-Tan 'My Melody' book clutch means that it is now socially acceptable for me to use my primary school lunchbox as a high fashion accessory again. To this add some Chiara Ferragni 'donna' platforms and a penchant for glitter and I can become the fairy of my dreams.

Illustration by me. Moschino top, Olympia Le-Tan bag and Chiara Ferragni shoes


Keita Maryama AW16

Also these earrings by Trixy Starr are fab

Illustration by me, earrings by Trixy Starr

My song of the day today is Murakami by Made in Heights

Monday, 20 June 2016

Monday inspirations:

Some things to help you get through the week ahead


Poppy Okotcha for Ashish AW16

Julian Hooper art

Chloe Norgaard for Ashish AW16

Ashish AW16= rad

A guy who puts up fake church signs to piss off his neighbours

pretty illustrations of natural things

SLIME from


I hope this helped

Song of the day: Hang Tough by Lillith Ai

Saturday, 18 June 2016

Lazy Daze

I believe I am in the midst of a quater-life crisis. For me this translates into a newfound infatuation (or obsession, depending on your opinion) with glitter, leading me to cover my entire body in it at every available opportunity (including your average trip to the supermarket).
 Having found myself, as of Friday, an officially out-of-education-and-unemployed-adult (shit), I'm kind of at a loss for what to do with my life, and, naturally, a minor existential crisis on Friday evening led to the purchase of 13 different types of glitter, 3 Vladimir Nabokov novels, and a stick n' poke tattoo set. I also shot some weirdo photos of my pal Morgana, and since I've run out of interesting updates, I feel like this will be the topic of today's blog post. So here goes, a bunch of photos taken while we were wasted/hungover this weekend:

Lazy Daze

My song of the day is 'Pleasure this Pain' by Kwamie Liv- enjoy x

Saturday, 20 February 2016

Today I was Joan Jett's weirdo twin

It's been a slow few months, to say the least. I've been working illegal hours trying to get all of my school work done and my spare time is being spent on multiple secret projects and arty experiments (to be uploaded fairly soon). But, come summer, I'll finally be free of bogus standardised exam boards and lengthy coursework, and writing/drawing/etc full time!

Today wasn't intended to be spent writing and photoshopping, but I woke up in a weirdo mood, threw on a (new) denim t-shirt and my (previously unworn) leather trousers, and took to the interwebs for 4 hours of hardcore shopping (and watching half a season of Scream Queens- the love of my life). My odd mood today has been inspired by a weeklong movie marathon and very little sleep; last night I watched 'The Runaways' (again) and this morning I decided to become Joan Jett (or her weirdo twin) for the day.

Top: Michael Kors
So I guess you could say this edit (made in a sheer attempt at procrastination) is in part inspired by the 70's (not that I was alive to see them myself), and in part down to the new Gucci collection which is, lo-and-behold, wearable. Florals, pastels, muted 70s prints; it's all very calm and geek chic, and the floral leather jacket is a personal favourite.

Cherie wears top by Valentino. Sandals from Saint Laurent, vest from Gucci,  skirt from Maje,  bangle from Saint Laurent

Embroidered denim set from Valentino, leather jacket from Gucci, all sandals from Miu Miu

All items from Gucci
Shop the items from this edit above^^

My song of the week this week is Who Cares If You Exist by Peacock Affect, enjoy :)

Saturday, 26 December 2015

Hello, København

Scandi style
^ It was literally this or the exact same outfit with leather shorts all week. Never underestimate the power of comfort ^

Backpack: Fendi

Jumper: American Vintage

Jeans: Rag & Bone

Ever woken up and wished you could just get on a plane, pick a city and explore? Yeah me too, so one crappy wednesday morning (wednesday being the most average of the weekdays) I booked a £20 flight, packed a bag and dragged my stress-wracked self to Copenhagen for the week.
jumper: American Vintage, jeans: Rag & Bone
The first difference I noticed in Copenhagen is the air: it's a more crisp and refreshing kind of cold than the sodding british winter we're all used to. This made traipsing around the city all day in 4 degree weather a weirdly pleasant experience, and within a few hours of landing in Denmark, my budget for the week was blown.

Literally me by hour two in danish Selfridges (I think it's called illum)
Scandi style is different to that in the rest of Europe; it's super laid back, clean cut and mega comfy. Heels and flashy bags are totally impractical and overrated, hand-knitted jumpers are in, and the heaven-sent Acne 'Velocite' coat is a must-have. This place was sartorial heaven on Earth for me.

 The (free) Statens Museum for Kunst became my favourite place to chill out, with a cafe backing into the park and loads of quiet places to curl up and read for a few hours when the city centre got too hectic.

Painting taken from the Statens Museum for Kunst
Dress: Gudrun & Gudrun
Boots: Toga Pulla
Leather collar: Creepyyeha
Leather cuff: Josephine Bergsøe
All other jewellery: Maria Black

I discovered a few great gems in Copenhagen: the quartz and diamond skull necklaces of Josephine Bergsøe, the minimalist and ingenious twisted earrings at Maria Black, and most notably, the handmade, multi-coloured and multi-textured jumpers of Faroese knitwear brand Gudrun & Gudrun (there'll be more on them another time)
My instant reaction at the Gudrun & Gudrun pop-up store
Shop Copenhagen below, and enjoy my song of the week! :)

At the Statens Museum for Kunst

Wednesday, 16 December 2015

Bethany Rose Lamont: The Doll Hospital interview

Having been a long-time follower of Bethany Rose Lamont and her fabulous blog, Milk Teeth, it seemed that now would be a great time to finally interview her, what with the third issue of the collaborative Doll Hospital Journal now underway (which, by the way, is an amazing and very relatable read). Doll Hospital has, so far, had some pretty great contributors (think Tavi Gevinson, Laura Callaghan and Ambivalently Yours), and the book-length issues featuring poetry, playlists, interviews and essays interspersed with thoughtful artwork is what has made me so inspired that I felt I had to write about it. The journal discusses various mental health conditions, from anxiety to depression to eating disorders and pretty much everything in between, emphasizing that, although we may all think it at times, nobody is alone.
What inspired you to start a mental health journal?

I started Doll Hospital in May 2014 when I was a Master’s student at Oxford University; I was suicidal and severely unstable. I was basically told to stop tweeting about wanting to kill myself on twitter as it was freaking everyone out so I was like, fine, I’ll find another medium to embarrass myself in! So I sent out a vague call for submissions on twitter about some kind of mental health print project which um, well it blew up I guess!?

What was the biggest hurdle you faced when creating Doll Hospital?

I actually think I’m really lucky with how Doll Hospital has gone so far as I had no resources or experience or capital, I literally just had a yahoo email address and started contacting people who I thought were cool?!

But I think the biggest hurdle Doll Hospital face is time and money, the publication has no income and we do all this unpaid in our free time on a voluntary basis when it’s basically a full time job? And as a severely mentally ill person myself, like I do get burnt out! Not gonna lie it’d be nice to not have to worry where the money for the next print run is coming as the copies sell out fast and we don’t have the resources to restock.


What do you think needs to change in order for people with mental health issues to be able to cope better?

I don’t think this burden should be on mentally ill people, because like we’re trying really fucking hard not to die every second of the day?! We need to reduce stigma, particularly in terms of more marginalised mental health experiences. Like I’m meant to be some mental health editor person and I still feel real stigma within mental health communities when I talk about dealing with psychosis and my experiences on the schizophrenia spectrum and that’s bullshit. There’s a hypocrisy and a politics of respectability that needs to be assessed, which in turn has its foundation in the history of medical racism (as highlighted by Jonathan Metzl’s book ‘The Protest Psychosis’.)

But more than that we need to understand how mental health impacts the most marginalised in our societies, as whilst trying to reduce stigma is great we still need to look at this on a structural level. To create a world when mental health people can cope better we need to be addressing wider social issues of homelessness, incarceration, police brutality, systematic racism and ableism in all forms. In short we need to try and nurture a culture that stops violently traumatising people.

How do you explain mental illness to someone who doesn't understand?

I don’t really have much of an interest in explaining mental illness to those not dealing with it in all honesty. This desperation for a PR rebrand is what has lead mainstream mental health narratives to that repulsive ‘you wouldn’t treat someone with cancer like that!’ rhetoric. I’m not interested in trying to make mental illness respectable or palatable, or throwing other marginalised people under the metaphorical bus in an attempt to do so.

We have gotten some feedback from neurotypical readers that the honesty and intensity of Doll Hospital makes them uncomfortable which was intended as a criticism but I take as a compliment. There’s that corny quote of ‘art should disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed’ and that’s how I feel about my own mental health writing and the work I publish and encourage. If a neurotypical reader ‘learns’ something reading Doll Hospital that’s great, that’s brilliant, but at the end of the day my focus is always going to be the people actually dealing with this stuff.

What would you say to someone suffering mental illness?

It doesn’t get better, you don’t get stronger, but you survive, you survive and oh my god that’s amazing.

Who are your role models? What influence have they had on shaping you as a person?

In terms of publishing Tavi Gevinson is probably my biggest role model, she has given so many young women in their teens and early twenties the confidence to raise their voices and be their own boss. Through Rookie she sent out the message that you don’t have to wait for institutional approval to create something beautiful and meaningful, you seriously can just go out and do it. If it wasn’t for her work I don’t think Doll Hospital would exist in all honesty.

In terms of advocacy everyone involved in the ADAPT movement and the 504 sit in, Black Panther and disability right activist Brad Lomax, founder of the Independent Living movement Ed Roberts, the members of the ‘Mental Patients Liberation Front’ in the 1970s, 19th century psychiatry campaigner Elizabeth Packard, psychiatry activist Judi Chamberlain, and founders of the Mad Pride movement such as Pete Shaughnessy and Robert Dellar. They provided the foundation to talk about, and against, institutional control and ableism in all its incarnations and we need to give them the thanks they deserve. 

What artists do you admire, and why?

Aaah an endless amount! Like all of our Doll Hospital contributors basically, the work of artists from our second issue such as Carolina H, Yumi Sakugawa, Gemma Correll, Hannah Moitt, Becca Hyman, Katie Parrish, Laura Callaghan, Vikki Chu, Herikita Conk, Margaret Anne, Rebecca Katz, Daphne Gerhard and Mikael Hattingh. They are all amazing and I love them.

In terms of outside Doll Hospital and towards like more canonical stuff I love Louis Wain, Daniel Johnston, Yayoi Kusama, Charlotte Salomon, Grandma Moses, Emily Barletta, Mike Kelley, William Blake, Will Barnet, Suehiro Maruo, Cicely Mary Barker, Mat Collishaw, Tove Jansson, Chantal Joffe, Peter Doig, Maria Pryimachenko, Maud Lewis, Shintaro Kago, Max Raffler, Junji Ito, Walt Disney, Simon Hanselmann and Judith Scott. Each of these artists represents a different model of survival to me.

Can you sum up the last 5 years of your life in 5 songs?

Oh god, the past 5 years have been me trying not to die so I’m not sure how uplifting this is going to be but I’ll have a go!


Laura Marling-My Manic and I

Ok this was a year of sustained psychotic episodes, colourful hallucinations, disordered eating, bad choices and no sleep and I used to pace around in circles high to this song as like I never said I was stable okay?


Karla-DeVito-We are Not Alone

I got on better meds this year! And started to feel hopeful! And only listened to John Hughes movie soundtracks!


Nina Simone-Don’t let me be misunderstood


I’m aware that this beautiful song probably wasn’t written with the intention of being a navel gazing soundtrack for an egotistical Syrian girl YET HERE WE ARE

Shonen Knife-Cookie Day

As I think I had that song stuck in my head that entire year


22 going on 23-Butthole Surfers

This is a horrible potentially triggering song of distorted survivor feels but this has been a messy year and an album that has the infinitely tasteful title of ‘locust abortion technician’ felt like the only option?!

Wednesday, 19 August 2015

The Hamptons//Babydoll shoot

While I was in Nice I got the super awesome chance to shoot my dear friend Fleur with the super awesome camera I got for crimbo. There's not much I can say about these photos but we bought a load of rainbow-coloured makeup and random accessories in a €1 store and I kinda went crazy. So here they are, a small collection of photos born out of a month of intensive heat with very little to do.



This was our first shoot EVER, and all the photos went straight onto instagram (hence the weird format). Fleur pretty much broke my internet with these so I figured, who doesn't wanna see a little amateur photography once in a while?

TOP: La Perla
SKORT: Model's own
SHOES: Marc by Marc Jacobs
PHONE: Moschino
BAG: Allsaints
BAG CHARM: My Little Pony (so cute!)

In between shooting 'Hamptons' and 'Babydoll', we had a weirdo makeover party, and Fleur's gonna hate me for sharing this but we discovered that eyeshadow + clear lipgloss = way cool glossy eyes


We were much more prepared for 'Babydoll', having finally got the hang of using my camera, I did the glossy eyes one more time and spent about half and hour dipping a hairbrush into the pool and kind of flicking it at Fleur. Despite the weird 3pm lighting, I gotta say, it all worked out pretty well. Is it bad for me to say I'm kinda proud of these? 

ALL CLOTHES: Model's own

So there you have it! You can follow both me (please) and fleur on instagram, and I'll be posting more of these weirdo teen photoshoots up here soon!
Me: @indiglofox
Fleur: @fleurr_a

My song of the week this week is I Met You by Anna Lunoe & Flume, enjoy :)

a cloud went over when I took this one- but it's still pretty cute, right?